I don’t know. Still living, even though there’s a lot of bullshit going around. It sucks. I’m always emotional as fuck. I really don’t get life, so I watch movies and shows on the internet. Things that show how life should probably be. I don’t know. I just want the “old” kind of living. Imagine people who live in Kiki’s Delivery Service or Madeline. Well, not really Madeline, since it’s all just girls with uniforms and Nuns. Well, shit, I don’t know.
Name ko po ay…. [Teacher helps me read my name].[Teacher asks me what I like to do at home] Kumain yung gusto ko kumain!
Elementary School [Once you keep going through the grades, you’ll notice that I have become a bitchy smartass]
Uhhh… hi… my name is Sophia Z. C. [What’s your favorite thing to do at home?] Play pokemon everyday. [Do you have any siblings?] Yes……
Ohai! My name is Sophia Z. C. [Leaves the center of the classroom and goes back to seat] [Teacher tells me to go back to the center] [I slowly walk to the center of the big ass rug]. Uhm… What else do I say? [Do you have anything else to tell us?] Uhhh, no? That is why I went back to my seat…
[Waits for my name to be called] You guys already know my name [Teacher tells me to tell my classmates my name] But they already know who I am!~~ [Teacher tells me to say my name or else she’ll call my mama] Okayyy… I’m Sophia… Bye! [Can you please elaborate on that?] What’s elaborate mean? [Ugghhh…. go back to your seat!] Sure :)
[Favorite teacher lists things on the board on what to include in our introductory]. My name is Sophia Z. C. I love Britney Spears. I like to sing and play video games. I don’t even read. I want to be a singer when I grow up. I’m Filipino [This is when people begin to go “Woaaahhh… I thought you were Chinese!!”]
[2nd favorite teacher] [What’s your name?] Sophia [Your last name?] C. [What’s your favorite color?] What does this have to do with anything? [Just tell us your favorite color!] Black [I know your brothers] Yeah, they’re assholes… [What?!] What? [What?!] WHUUUUUUUTTT?!!
Hey, my name is Sophia C. [Every other subjects had different ways of introductions]
Hiii…. My name is Sophia C. [Same shiit….]
Uhm… I’m Sophia. [Same shiit… again]
Hi, I’m sophia … [What’s your last name?] C. [I sit back down]
Heeeeyyyyyyyyy….. My name is Sophia C. [Classmates go “Dude, is she Chinese or Japanese?] Uhh… I’m Filipino [“Holy CRAAAP!!!”]
“Too often, we pay attention to other peoples comments, how they think of us. Why should we be so concerned if they won’t even give a fuck about you, truly? You even make comments about others and it’s not their business, so why should their comments be your business?”— Zen Kanji
Someone I can talk to, even though they’re just listening and not talking back
Him speaking if they Want to, not because they want to show off or something
Him wanting to hold me and hug me, or jut hold me
Him not giving me any fuckn compliments, unless I ask if I look good
Him being himself and being honest, no matter how painful and shitt it is
Him giving me those looks, even though I’m not looking at him [blushing]
Both of us exhanging smiles, laughs, and whatever
Him just being weird as fuck, with me
He doesn’t mind if my grammer and speaking is bad
He’s not jealous, but if he just is, then I’d still love him
Both of us are Only concerned about each other, not other people
We don’t give a fuck about others comments, because it ain’t our business
We are compatible, in some way
There are a balance of differences and same shit
Both of us hate/dislike the same shit
Both of us love/like the same shit
We both like/love/dislike/hate different shit
We can just walk or sit, hand-in-hand, not talking
Just hug and not say anything, unless one of us wanna speak
Both of us don’t force each other to do something
Expectations are not in relationship, Unexpected things, sure
Even if no one accepts us, we won’t give a fuck, and still love each other
I can poke him when I’m bored or something, I don’t know
We get to learn about each other, even if we don’t ask questions
There’s a sense of sameness
I already like someone who is like this, and I think he likes me, too. All the above, Most of that shit happened already, like 85% - 90% of it happened. I’ll go confess to him on the last day of school, since he said to me, “Don’t skip school! You lazy butthead!” Haha, I really don’t know if he’s gonna come to school tomorrow, but sure, I’ll go to school tomorrow.
I have learned a lot of things by myself, because no one taught me anything. Like how to accept, love, care, and commit to people that I choose to be with [Friends, Family, Future Boyfriend (The Older Twin), and others].
In order for me to know that I’m successful, I had to do what I feared, but loved the most. Singing in 8th grade talent show boosted up my self-esteem even though I lost, but I only performed because I love singing. I had to do something that seemed impossible. Like having no partner for the science project last week, so I did everything myself.
I know what I want and need, but some of those things were not worthless, but worth experiencing. Some of the things I wanted to do and have were bad. Some of the things I needed, was not used for awhile, like old video games.
I’ve accepted and loved myself everyday. I Most Def, not cared about my health, since I had to do something important first. Like finishing study guide questions for a day and not eating lunch or dinner that day. Or helping out a friend and ending up not doing the things I prioritized first.
I cleaned up my room for the first time. My mom usually cleaned up my room when I told her that I would. I don’t want her to clean up my room since there’s a lot of personal stuff around my room. Journals with a lot of shit in there and other shit lol.
I’m more into rapping, singing, dancing, art stuff, and learning how to produce music. I’m into writing my ow novel and making a comic too. I’m into writing poetry, mostly the Outspoken kind of poets.
I bought books about mystery, military, and some other shit. I love reading, but I haven’t read for awhile.
There’s more stuff, but I have to study for my LAST final. It’s egnlish final tomorrow. I gotta memorize SAT words and the Julius Caesar Study Guide.